All i wish…
is that he would see how much i love him. That i crossed oceans to be with him and that even though we have both made mistakes, what we have/had together is beautiful and worth fighting for. He swore so many times not to give up on me, on us. And in the end, things got hard and he left. Now he won’t even talk to me and i wonder where the last two years went. The warm sumer days laying in the park together, talking about nothing forever and just being together. Sometimes love gets lost, he should know that because even Mac Miller quotes it. But, our love is real and even though he may need some time to see it, its there. And in my eyes, it burns hot like the sun. If he could just forget the last two weeks of hardship and focus on the year and a half before it. Im in love with him and i know he’s still in love with me. He can say to himself a thousand times that he’s not but i know he’s just lying to himself. He’s under a lot of stress right now and maybe he just needed a break to get it all together, but the truth is that it would be easier by my side. i would never try to hold him back and maybe he felt like he was just letting me down too much but i know if he let himself look into his heart, he would know that he would rather struggle through with me than waste away his life without me. i don’t know how long it will take him to see all of this and maybe when he does, i won’t be around anymore. But i know him like the back of my hand and i know that no matter how much he wants to forget me, late at night when he is alone with his thoughts, he questions whether he is doing the right things and whether he should text me and take it all back. i love you david. even if you don’t think you can love me right now.
